The Day is Over

I'm glad it's over. I don't know how many more days I have. I can't live this.

Does goodness spring again after death in your heart? This life is tragic to me. If I could be dead I would be. I've lost too much to care if he answers anymore. Too embarrassing, too sad and depressing everyday. 

If you are real come tonight and act. 

"I am here. I am here. I am moving in you and for you now. Just believe. Feel my presence. I will show you my love everyday."


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