When The Music's Over

I'm sitting with my sister. She's retired and watches bad television. I am in hell. It makes me want to kill myself. 

Should I kill myself a God? After all these years of depression and failure, how long do we stick this out? Pop culture has not helped. The shallow and the passing. Lost too much time and too many brain cells. And unless this life changes I don't want to keep playing. 

#silence #death #life #god #hope #hopeless #badtelevision #hell #heaven 

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